Silencio por favor.

“Let us be silent, that we may hear the whispers of the gods...” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

I looked it up today, and i have think that i may have an aversion to silence. One that extends to an inner impulse to surround myself with people. A distinct preference of the loud over the quiet, the crowd over the isolation. And it has quite possibly progressed to become a full blown disease. A fear, A phobia [sedatephobia, ermitophobia]. But i now see that i must understand that silence is a double-edged sword. It can bring the deepest sorrow through realization of the workings my subconscious. But it has the power to spark epiphanies.

In the darkest moments of life. In the deepest recesses of solitude, the silence is deafening. It screams at me. Pleading with me. Begging with me. Pulling me this way or that direction. And it can become a source of constant agony. The thoughts that you try to lock away in your mind come out. Every hurtful, angry, damaging scenario has the potential to be replayed repeatedly in your head, leaving you emotionally spent. So i find it easy to fear this state of vulnerability. Easy to overlook my urge fill my life with anything that blocks and deters the inevitable. But that's just one side of the story.

To read in between the lines is to realize the positive impacts that silence brings. I've heard it all before. "Silence is bliss," whatever. And although it's hard to see past all the ways it can hurt, that part is there. The bliss, the golden opportunities to reflect on life. To make important self realizations that don't come with the hustle and bussle of the everyday grind. I feel it's important to step back once in a while, take a deep breath, and just think. Think about anything and everything. Meditate on life itself, hearing everything on a supernatural level. Hearing and interpreting the whispers from Above. And just like that, our lives can be drastically altered. It is ultimately up to us to bypass the fear, to get to the light. Our responsibility to harness the power that silence holds. To control it. All to work in our favour.