Recap.

"Sometimes quotes aren't even needed"

1:44am and i'm keeping my word of writing something every day. However, i'm too sleep-deprived to think of anything interesting or funny to talk about so i'll just write something to remind myself of what i did the past couple of nights.

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January 15th: Sanjay's Party
I've been really lazy lately in terms of being bothered to get out of the house to see people. Aside from maybe one or two people at the very most, i haven't seen any school people since... The formal. I don't know what's happened to me, or why i've changed. Maybe it was the overseas trip or the fact that i don't have a license, and the thought of bussing/training that far makes me want to cry. But the truth is, my mind has been on so many different things lately, that "missing school friends" has been really absent. So aside from being able to celebrate my friend's birthday, it was really enjoyable just to see all those familiar faces. The very same people who made the last 6 years of my life so memorable. I'm glad i decided to go, and even gladder that my parents had let me. But most importantly i think i'm just excited to have that nostalgic feeling back; that craving to see those people again. I hope that feeling never goes away.

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January 16th: yardwork + boxing + xbox.
One activity making me feel like a fieldslave and two events that are quickly moving up my list of favourite past times. Although i am getting slightly tired of first person shooting videogames, the entertainment from getting hit in the face and watching OTHER people get hit in the face is timeless. I have this condition where i constantly imagine what it would be like getting into a fight or being attacked*. And every single scenario my mind conjures up ends with me getting hit in the face. So hopefully i'll become resilient to that and be able to protect myself. That's the plan at least.





*more on these scenarios laterr.